Anger.....

I'm not sure how my family deals with me... they must truly love me because during the a flare i get

*Hateful

*Angry
*Frustrated

I take my anger out on any one who spends  time with me.  Things i do i'm not proud of....

*Yell

*Scream

* Ignore people

*Short Tempered

Its like having no control of your emotional stability before a flare.  I get so frustrated because i know when a flare is coming on... Its like i have a full on panic attack and my brain and everything involved in my body...brain... just gets over stimulated and my i don't know how to hold in all the frustration...

 



My latest flare symptoms

*Agitation

* fever

*cold spells

*throbbing burning pain

*extreme joint pain and swelling

*hair loss

*GIANT MOUTH SORES

 

My Flare has been sparked by the recent stress I've under gone lately.  I had a very busy month with Pure Romance.. the fact that i killed my very best friend...adopted 12 new puppies.. and laineys first week of preschool.  

 

However good things did happen this past week... 1. I saved the lives of 12 puppies... 2.  i raised $550 for Team Knaup, to donate to the Walk for Lupus Now!  One day my team will find a cure!!!

 

4..... My team member and dear friend Lori made this amazing weighted blanket for me. 

 

It weighs 24 pounds!!!! i dont' know how she did, but it works so well!! my body feels like it could fall to pieces from pain at nights, I've been using this for a week, and I've been waking up rested because the second i drape it over me my body settles down, the pain is bearable, and i sleep!!

 

Which the most important thing to beat lupus is to be able to sleep!!!! Thank you so much Lori!!! I love my weighted blanket~!

GO TEAM KNAUP