Addiction....

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From: Alisa Green
Date: Saturday, June 11, 2011
Subject: Addiction....
To: "celtic_anubis7.alisa@blogger.com"

Well my week has officially ended with my new medications.

Things I've noticed

I have a very addictive personality.  I tend to become addicted to
things very easily and with this personality trait I tend to be more
aggressive more passionate and can easily be triggered with anger.

My doctor warned me about sudden and onset anger while taking the
dopamine medication.  I've noticed the smallest thing can set me off.
Very quickley and the rage spews through every tendon in my body
almost making me shake.  luckily I don't turn green and smash things
though I would like too.

So to keep me calm she has increased my prozac.  As of yesterday which
as we know takes a while to process through our bodies.

I've noticed the feeling of anger even in my dreams.  My grandfather
who actually has parkinsons who was taking the same medication I am.
We talked about his side affects and he said anger nightmares and
shaking made him quit.

Im torn because I don't like having all these angry feelings inside
but the medication is really working.  Two months ago I could barely
walk a block without cringing in pain. Now im walkun a mile and a half
like it ain't no thing.

Im really hoping my prozac will kick in and help if not I don't think
ill be able to take the medication.

This weekend my joints are still stiff but there isn't the pain of the
throbbing pressure...

I guess I nay have to disconnect my fb for a while and meditate more
in my walks.  Perhaps that will calm things and ill be able to cope
with this medication.